Hold

oh well, you've got me under your spell
and i don't think that i'm kidding around.
i don't think I can forget you now.
i once sat up on my roof, examined the planning of my town.
i saw the structured grid and pavement cutting through grass
remembered the cold of winter running up the legs of my pants.
i picked the nicest lawn and imagined the two of us rolling around
down along the ground.
i saw myself touch your face and i noticed jets begin to race above our heads.
and i pinched my arm, remembered how much you hate me.
remembered the fact that i can't see what you need
too stupid to be aware of the beauty that you give this place and
how shitty this town would seem without you in it.
When you aren't around i let the shades fall down
to shut out all the sun's light
make myself feel all right.
what am i doing with my life?
oh well, you've got me under your spell
and i don't think that i'm kidding around.
i don't think I can forget you now.
remember the only things we need sometimes
are chilly nights and warmer thighs,
'cause nothing's like being held sometimes.